mood:
my last N shift today.
it was a lucky last N shift cos i had emmey & clarence to chat & make fun with.
altho the deck was my favourite place & puga's there, my mood still didn't suit the deck in the morning.
but i was luffing so hard until i went really hungry @ 1+pm & couldn't do anything else anymore.
Clarence the kidnapper who kept grabbing me & threatened to put me in the bin!
my ah pek who never fails to make me laugh & my day =). he is really a doting father~
other pics:
Emmey's childish idea. lOlx!
Ronald Sr.'s fashion: too good for Milan lOlx!
didn't plan to go out after work.
but i gave in in the end & went out to have dinner with ronald.
i realized how much i really hurt him & was really guilty as he told me wad happened @ work.
but it also made me feel touched that the few sentences i said could make him go bonkers.
altho i was really heartbroken when he said all those nasty things, i was the still the selfish one who didn't accept/ whistle away his countless apologies.
we were both selfish & spiteful people.
i am sorry too.
and i forgive you when you told me what you went through.
that's how i really was able to understand from your perspective.
you also made me realize it wasn't that bad as i imagined after i said everything to you.
and that i shouldn't be afraid to slowly emerge out of my closet.
still we have different perspectives but i'm glad you're able to keep a lookout for me at times.
was advised not to think about the negative side & the 'what ifs' but focused on why i still wouldn't let you go.
for that moment, my mind was a blank & my future was a blank.
and that's how i knew i couldn't let go no matter how open i am & how hard i try to imagine.
that there will be no one to voice my heart out at.
no one to scream at.
no one to smile secretly with.
no one who can read my mind & guess quite a number of my thoughts.
no one to show me i can be really immature.
no one to say to how it feels right being with you right down to just looking at you solely.
everything about you is beautiful and genuine.
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so it's Shokudo pizza for dinner!
SeafoOd pizza: so-so but rather little seafoOd & prawns were dry
Ratings: 5/10
Unagi & Mushroom Pizza: omg omg omg. the 1st bite was wow. i totally fell in love with it. the unagi was so flavoured & it blends really well with the melted cheese, shrooms and thin crust.
Ratings: 8/10 definitely my fave.
Then it was dessert @ Ice Monster.
hmm. too overrated? the fruits were really fresh (& i love the sweetness of the mangoes coupled with the tangy sour feeling of the kiwis) but sherbet was just alright.
Ratings: 6.7/10
somehow i feel the unsettleness feeling is starting to subside.
until i saw this bloOdy email given by the bloOdy lecturer warning me & telling me wad to expect for my soci mass media mod!
it's like "if you can't make the cut, don't bother" type of email -_-'''
i realized wad a blunder i made when i'm not the newspaper person.
argh.
the stress is already shoved into your face before you even get the feel of the module yourself.
practical.
